Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Ehsaas jo ajab hain dar p dar

I am not worried about anything. I am not worried about anyone. I am not responsible for anything. I am not responsible to anyone. I am concerned with myself. I am free to choose my destiny. I am free to use my discretion. I am not doing anything against my will. I am careful about myself. I am caring myself. I am alone. I was alone. I will be alone. Nothing, no one comes together goes together.

Tum Hamare Nahi To Kya Gham Hai

Hum Tumhare To Hai Yeh Kya Kam Hai

Tum Hamare Nahi To Kya Gham Hai

Hum Tumhare To Hai Yeh Kya Kam Hai
Muskura Do Zara Khuda Ke Liye

Sham-e-mhafil Mein Roshni Kam Haai

Tum Hamare Nahi To Kya Gham Hai

Hum Tumhare To Hai Yeh Kya Kam Hai
Ban Gaya Hai Yeh Zindagi Aab To

Tuz Se Badkar Hume Tera Gam Hai

Tum Hamare Nahi To Kya Gham Hai

Hum Tumhare To Hai Yeh Kya Kam Hai


I am feeling isolated. I want to be isolated from other. I am not in mood to talk to anyone, even I don’t want see anyone. I just want to sit in my dark room and be gloomy. I want to give deep thought about the prank life is playing with me. I simply unable to think anything. I am trying to dissect the reason of sadness. I just want to be myself. I wonder about the way of life. I was at height of happiness in the morning and now I am sitting in the valley of the sorrow. What bothers me? I am asking to myself and I want answer. Where the things go wrong? I seem to have everything and, then nothing appeals me. I cannot concentrate on my work, neither books give me any relief. I don’t want anyone near me. I am just looking up to find the answer. I know this phase soon will pass, but it will come again someday. In my little life I have been fighting with my inner self fiercely. In every battle I felt doomed but the experience has taught me that everything passes on. Time is the best medicine for everything. I can handle the pressure from outside, when the force is known and can be seen. But many a times it is hard to find the point of the pain.After riding in the roller coaster I understand one thing. It is in the mind. Whether you are in the woods or in the crowds. Even being in the woods you cannot be alone, your memories, your feelings chase you, you are not alone, you long for something, someone, you are struck somewhere in the crowd in spite of being in the woods.But if you are silent in mind, peaceful then you between the crowds and still you are alone, nothing can affect you.So if you are happy it is because of you and if you are sad then also because of you only, nobody is against or in favor of you. It is always state of mind; you are in hell or heaven as decided by you.

Tere baare mein jab socha nahin thaa,

main tanha thaa magar itna nahin thaa

Teri tasveer se karta thaa baatein,

mere kamre mein aayina nahin thaa.

Samandar ne mujhe pyaasa hi rakha,

main jab sahera mein thaa pyaasa nahin thaa.

Manaane ruthne ke khel mein hum,

bichhad jaayenge ye socha nahin thaa.

Suna hai band kar li aankhein usne,

kai raaton se wo soya nahin thaa

Bus Aisa hain yeh Ehsaas jo insaan ke zehen se chahe nahin jata

aur reh jate kuch unkahe unsune sawaal...............................

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